that my family is going to vacation without me. They’re all packing and getting ready to spend a week in South Carolina. We usually go there every summer since I was a baby, with a few years as exceptions.
It’s just sad because they get to escape for a week, while I’m stuck here. Everyone seems to have had a summer. Not me though. I’ve been stuck in summer classes for both sessions. The classes aren’t what got to me, it’s trying to balance school, work, family, friends, and my girl friend.
With the few weeks of summer left, I have nothing really planned except my little get together at Dave & Busters this Saturday.
The worst is that no one understands how exhausted I am. Mentally and physically. I just cannot take it sometimes. It just feels very grueling and there is nothing I can do about it.
I sleep late and wake up early.
I just wish I could relax and not feel so stressed 24/7. I have so much on my mind that it consumes me.
Comparing my mental state to last year, it seems like the exact opposite.
“If Tom had learned anything… it was that you can’t ascribe great cosmic significance to a simple earthly event. Coincidence, that’s all anything ever is, nothing more than coincidence… Tom had finally learned, there are no miracles. There’s no such thing as fate, nothing is meant to be. He knew, he was sure of it now.”—500 Days of Summer ( via Lalalacia)